a nice dinner out after a long time

Yesterday i had a dinner with some of my friends here in Sydney. Aien and Arvin celebrated their birthdays. I spent the night with the rest of the gang - Iyam, Amy, Marie, Hannah, Martee, and Frunny.

We ate at a resto in Chinatown which I completely forgot the name. The waiter who got our orders was not really friendly, but i could say the food was great there. What i like the most is the honey lemon sprawn.

A new friend, Frunny, was introduced to me. A connection was made when i found out that he also worked in Safeway Manila.

I missed the feeling of laughter at a dinner table with people - my friends. I had a good night out with them. I really needed a nice relaxing "chillax" with friends.

Its been like ages now since i had that feeling. Some things have changed and i'm moving on.

The TALK

i prefer not having the "talk". The "talk" usually ends not good... at least for me.

When you open the can of worms there is no way of undo-ing it. I'm just afraid that when i say my problems to other party, things won't be the same again.

For me stuff would be awkward... that is why i don't usually tell my problem with the other party and just wait til i overcome with my feelings and issues.... i don't usually say it to other person unless i really know that other party.

Its just that its hard for me to open things up.

Things have been said and i just don't know to how stuff will turn out.


Let's call it a day!

Other Person: How are you?
me: not too bad...


but does it mean something is bad?

For the past days i always say that in office. I cannot say 'great' because i was not in really good mood.

its not that i am being a selfish bitch. i was once told if you lose option you start losing hope. I was put in a situation where i didn't have a choice or so it seems.

I would have done it myself or volunteered myself.

I don't want to argue anymore... i was having a hard time arguing in my mind let alone in real life.

im just tired to argue....



Let's call it a day!